Hey, this is Dana Schwartz. You may know my voice from Noble Blood, Haleywood, or stealing Superman. I'm hosting a new podcast, and we're calling it very special episodes. A very special episode is stranger than fiction.

It sounds like it should be the next season of true Detective. These canadian cops trying to solve this mystery of who spiked the chowder on the Titanic set.

Listen to very special episodes on the iHeartRadio app, Apple Podcasts, or wherever you get your podcasts.

Hello, this is Susie Esman and Jeff Garland. I'm here, and we are the hosts of the history of curb your enthusiasm podcast. Now, we're going to be rewatching and talking about every single episode, and we're going to break it down and give behind the scenes knowledge that a lot of people don't know. And we're going to be joined by special guests, including Larry David and Cheryl Hines, Richard Lewis, Bob Odenkirk, and so many more. And we're going to have clips, and it's just going to be a lot of fun. So listen to the history of curb your enthusiasm on iHeartRadio app, Apple podcasts, or wherever you happen to get your podcasts.

What up, guys?

Ola Catal, it's your girl cheekies from the cheekies and chill and dear Cheekies podcasts. And guess what? We're back for another season. Get ready for all new episodes where I'll be dishing out honest advice, discussing important topics like relationships, women's health, and spirituality. I'm sharing my experiences with you guys, and I feel that everything that I've gone through has made me a wiser person. And if I can help anyone else through my experiences, I feel like I'm living my godly purpose. Listen to cheekies and chill and your cheekies on the iHeartRadio app, Apple Podcast, or wherever you get your podcasts.

This is Rachel goes rogue.

This is Rachel, Savannah Levis, and you're listening to Rachel goes rogue. I'm here with my iheart producers. They're asking me the tough questions that you guys really want to know. So let's get into it.

So let's get into one that is, we hear repeatedly, Rachel, you don't own it. You keep playing the victim. How do you respond to that?

Look, there's two separate instances here. There is the fair and the cheating and the lying. There's another part where I have been assaulted and harassed and threatened, and my life had become completely unmanageable and so out of my control that it has impacted me in a way that I couldn't even fathom. And you can be two things at once. You could be a perpetrator where you are making these mistakes and taking accountability for those actions. And you can also be a victim of manipulation, a victim of assault, a victim of harassment, and both of those things can happen to the same person at the same time. I'm doing my very best to take accountability. I've done everything that I possibly could to change my behavior and learn from my mistakes. And I'm not trying to play the sympathy card so that you guys could forgive me for my past indiscretions. That's not my motive. I'm just putting this all out there so you guys could be more educated on the choices that I made and the reasonings behind them and how this has impacted my life and how I'm moving forward to be a better person and hopefully make change.

Did you give Graham to a kill shelter? Can you explain that?

I did not give Graham to a kill shelter. I gave Graham over to a breed specific dog rescue. This was after I put him in training to work on those issues. And I tried to get him rehomed with a different family, a different foster family. But because he had bitten so many different people that were caring for him, the rescue needed more money to get a new trainer because this trainer didn't want to work with him anymore. And so that's how this whole thing came about, which we went into in chapter one.

Can you specify how many people he bit before you took him there?

In the process of trying to get rehomed, he attacked another dog. He attacked the foster that he was staying with and the foster's grandchild, and he attacked that foster. Clearly, that wasn't a good fit. He bit my mom, he bit the trainer who was working with him. He bit the new owner and the owner's husband or wife. I don't know the specific people, but I know that two people were bit, and that's why he was returned. And I don't want this to sound like, oh, of course, he was going to be hours away of being euthanized. Well, first of all, that's not true. And second of all, I had no intention of putting Graham down. Like, if anything, I wanted him to live. I just didn't want him to be with James. And the golden doodle rescue that Graham was under the care of promised to keep it confidential. But they broke that confidentiality when they reached out to Vanderpump dogs for a donation. And they could have reached out to us for a donation. We just weren't aware of the circumstances. We weren't getting updates on him or anything. They even said that it would take four months to get him rehabilitated before rehoming him.

And so we just didn't even think that they were going to rehome him so quickly. But they could have reached out to us for money, and we would have happily given them money to keep working with Graham.

So Sheena has said that she put you up in her apartment for free and took care of you when you didn't have anywhere to go. Can you shed some light on that?

Sheena did not put me up at her apartment for free. I subletted her apartment. She wanted to keep her LA apartment while she was living in her house in San Diego with her family, with Brock and her baby. And this is also during the pandemic. So she had this Covid rate on her apartment, and she wanted to keep it, but she didn't want to be paying such a large sum of money each month when she wasn't even using it. So she knew that I was in a place where I was looking for somewhere to live, and she offered for me to stay at her place at a discounted rent rate. And so I paid my low rent every month, plus utilities. And I also cat sat for her cat, who had. It was a procedure where they had to pump her cat with mercury. And because the baby couldn't be exposed to the mercury, she needed someone to look after this cat. So I was like, I'll look after her. It's not a problem. So it worked out pretty well for both of us. But of course, now she's saying that I live there rent free, but it seems to be that I live rent free in Sheena's mind.

Another cast member recently said in her podcast that you were a fan of the show. Can you explain or tell that story?

Oh, yeah. I don't want to offend any fans out there because you guys are incredible. I just didn't watch Vanderpump rules. I didn't know what it was when I met James. And then I started looking into it because my friends told me and he told me about it. And I did some research. I didn't watch all the episodes, but I wasn't a big reality tv viewer. I started watching the Kardashians with James because James liked the fact that Kanye was, like, it was entertaining to tune in, but I didn't take it super seriously. And I know our friend group likes to watch Love island. And so that was one of the shows that I started watching post filming, but I really didn't quite know what the show was, and I was definitely naive to that. But, no, I wasn't a fan.

People think you masterminded this whole thing. What is your response to that?

I definitely didn't mastermind this. I think I fell into the situation and just didn't know how to handle it. The thought has crossed my mind. Like, did Tom mastermind this? He is known to self produce, and all he has is this show. And the success of this show equals longevity in his career. He's over 40 now, and this is his life. This is his main income. When we did have conversations about how is this going to play out, he said, one of the pros is that we can be together next season. And so not to say that he's the mastermind behind it, I think he had his motivation behind it. That really escalated the situation. Whereas if it wasn't a reality tv show and we weren't all filming, I don't know if it would be like this. I wonder. You say he was 40. You say all these things about Tom. Did you actually see a real future with him? Okay, so this is interesting, because when I worked in my therapy, I realized that when you're choosing men, specifically unhealthy men, it is this younger version of yourself choosing these guys to try to get some wound healed, some.

Something to add up within you. And so when that registered in my mind, I was like, oh, my God, my inner child chose Tom, this 40 year old, like, no. I'm like, no, honey. When it all played out, a lot of his character came forward, and the way that he would talk to my parents, it just seemed like a James 2.0 situation, and I won't allow that in my relationships anymore. I think family is really important. And I know I said in the past that I don't want to be like my mom, but my mom is an incredible woman who is very caring, and she wants the best for me, and she's a mama bear in the way that I am her baby, and she just hates everything that's happening right now. But I had to learn my lessons on my know, being in that rebellious era of your life, wanting to make your own mistakes. I'm learning the hard way.

Hi, I'm Susie Esman.

And I am Jeff Garland.

Yes, you are.

And we are the hosts of the history of Curb your enthusiasm podcast. We're going to watch every single episode. It's 122, including the pilot, and we're going to break them down.

By the way, most of these episodes I have not seen for 20 years.

Yeah, me too. We're going to have guest stars and people that are very important to the show, like Larry David.

I did once try and stop a woman who was about to get hit by a car. I screamed out, watch out. And she said, don't you tell me what to do.

And Cheryl Hines, why can't you just.

Lighten up and have a good time?

And Richard Lewis, how am I going.

To tell him I'm going to leave now? Can you do it on the phone? Do you have to do it in person? What's the answering cable? You have to go in as a human being. He's helped you.

And then we're going to have behind the scenes information. Tidbit.

Yes, Tidbit is a great word.

Anyway, we're both a wealth of knowledge about this show because we've been doing it for 23 years. So subscribe now and you could listen to the history of Kerber enthusiasm on iHeartRadio app, Apple Podcasts, or wherever you happen to get your podcasts.

Hey, this is Dana Schwartz. You may know my voice from Noble Blood, Haley Wood, or stealing Superman. I'm hosting a new podcast, and we're calling it very special episodes.

One week, we'll be on the case with special agents from NASA as they crack down on black market moon rocks.

H. Ross Pro is on the other side, and he goes, hello, Joe. How can I help you? I said, Mr. Pro, what we need is $5 million to get back a moon rock.

Another week, we'll unravel a 90s Hollywood mystery.

It sounds like it should be the next season of true detective or something. These canadian cops trying to solve this 25 year old mystery of who spiked the chowder on the Titanic set.

A very special episode is stranger than fiction. It's normal. People plop down in extraordinary circumstances. It's a story where you say, this should be a movie. Listen to very special episodes on the iHeartRadio app, Apple Podcasts, or wherever you get your podcasts.

What up, guys? Ola ketal.

It's your girl.

Cheekies from the cheekies and chill. And dear Cheekies podcasts. You've been with me for season one and two, and now I'm back with season three. I am so excited. You guys get ready for all new episodes where I'll be dishing out honest advice and discussing important topics like relationships, women's health, and spirituality. For a long time, I was afraid of falling in love, so I had to. And this is a mantra of mine or an affirmation every morning where I tell myself it is safe for me to love and to be loved. I've heard this a lot. That people think that I'm conceited, that I'm a Mamona. And a mamona means that you just think you're better than everyone else. I don't know if it's because of how I act in my video. Sometimes I'm like, I'm a baddie. I don't know what it is, but I'm chill. It's cheekies and chill. Hello. Listen to cheekies and chill and dear cheekies as part of the My Coultura podcast network on the iHeartRadio app, Apple Podcasts, or wherever you get your podcasts.

So we saw you have an anxiety breakdown on air after the discussing the James case, right?

Oh, yeah.

What do people not know or understand about that?

They know and understand that I was really hungover the next day and I had anxiety. I think that conversation that I had with the girls in the car was more of a vulnerable type of conversation that you would normally have with close, trusted friends. And I knew in the back of my mind that these are not safe people for you to bear at all to. And as I was telling them the story of me planning to break up with James and how I had intentions of leaving the ring box on the counter when he got back from Europe and that all of my stuff was going to be gone, and how I felt like that would be the safest way for me to break up with him. I didn't go into the details of why we were breaking up and why I couldn't be with him anymore. And only a few people know that story. And it was also at a time where I didn't want to tell the world because I didn't want to ruin his life. I think that's what really brought on that panic attack, because I wanted to say these things.

There was more to that story, and I was holding myself back and overthinking everything and knowing that this isn't a safe place. That anxiety built up, so much so that I couldn't breathe, I felt faint, I couldn't see, and I just started hyperventilating. It was a GoPro car scene, so they captured all of that. I was able to take a break right after that because we pulled into this restaurant stop. Which just reinforced that these are not safe people. You shouldn't be with these people right now because they were, like, eating on their own. And I didn't feel like a welcoming vibe. Like, it felt like, oh, gosh, she's still here kind of attitude. And as we got to Tahoe and Charlie met up with us and we were supposed to stay there for a few days with the know, I was ready to put what was said behind us, and the girls were talking about it, filling Charlie in and kind of mocking me, know, poking at me. And one of the producers pulled me aside and said, like, hey, you're letting these girls pick on you right now. I think you should really speak up for yourself.

And I'm like, I'm so tired, right? Like, I can't do it. And he was, you know, it's just hypocritical of Lala to be saying that she doesn't trust you around her man because she cheated with James. If anyone can't trust anybody around their man, it would be her, right? And I was like, yeah, that's a good point. And so I was trying to take this direction and say my piece to stand up for myself. And looking back, I'm like, oh, God. I could barely even get the words out because I was so brain dead from the night before, so physically exhausted from not having enough sleep and just feeling this pressure that I need to. I need to live up to this part of me that's not allowing people to bully me anymore and not allowing their opinion of me, to influence my opinion of myself and really standing up for myself. But it wasn't done in a way that was empowering to me. It was prompted by an outside force and not something I would normally say in that instance, even though it was a good point for sure, Charlie felt uncomfortable staying there.

She said, I really, really want to go back to LA. And I was like, dude, I don't blame you. I want to go back there, too. This isn't fun. And so we stayed up talking all night about it, and she's like, how do we get, like, how do we get out of here? And it's like, we should just tell producers we're leaving. We're not staying. This isn't a good environment, and we're going. And so the producers were, no, no. You said that you were going to stay. And Charlie's like, I drove all the way out here in my least car, and I just got here and I want to leave. And that's how bad I want to leave. And eventually Charlie was like, look, they're not going to listen to. Like, you have to convince them it's on you. Like, Raquel, please do this. For me. And so they said, fine, you can leave only if you tell the girls that you're going to go meet up with the guys at guys night. And I'm like, okay. And then they said, and tell Lala that you think that she's just jealous of you because you were the one that got with Oliver, not her, and that he chose you.

And I was like, okay, but then you promise we can. Yes, yes. Then you can go. So I was like, fine. Anything to leave. If I was in that instance without production there, I would just say, you know, thanks for inviting me here. I feel really uncomfortable. I'm still feeling tired and hungover from that night in Vegas. And Charlie and I just don't feel comfortable. We want to go home, but thanks for inviting us. It was fun while it lasted and then left. But instead, of course, it had to be something more dramatic than. So of course, they also, after that whole ride back from Tahoe to LA, they're like, you have to film immediately. You can't go home and sleep. You have to go to this guy's night. I'm like, okay, I'll go to the guy's night. And what's the worst that can, you know, Charlie and I walk in, and who's the brightest eyed, bushy tailed one to see me? Who is so thrilled that I just walked in, other than Tom Sandoval? And it's such bs, too, because I heard somebody say, like, oh, yeah, Tom definitely knew. Producers definitely told Tom that Charlie and Raquel were about to walk in like he was ready for that scene.

And I'm like, God damn it. He fooled. Like, I thought he was actually genuinely happy to see me. I was like, oh, my God. This is what it feels like to actually be appreciated and feel like you're welcomed in a room and feel like somebody wants you there. Like the stark contrast. But then later on, finding out that he was acting and that wasn't fully, you know, we had a conversation that I remember that night, people were asking me like, oh, where are we going after this? And I said, oh, I'm going wherever Tom Sandoval goes. And they had that on my mic pack. They have that audio. And I didn't say it as a way to be like, oh, I'm going wherever Tom Sandoval goes, I'm going to intervene. I'm going to put myself in the middle of, no. I was feeling like this person actually cares about me and he's down to hear my side of the story. And we went to Saddle ranch across the street with our friends. When I talked to him and explained everything that happened that trip, it was like the whole world melted away. Like the only person that I could see was him and nobody else.

And he was listening to me, like, actually listening to me and understanding the situations that I was in and that producers were intervening and telling me to say certain things that I normally wouldn't actually say. And he understood that he had been there before. There's a video that surfaced that one of our friends took because they were in the car ready to leave Saddle ranch, and they were waiting for us. And I guess they pulled up right in front of us, and Tom and I were sitting on the curb right outside of saddle ranch. We were just talking and talking and talking away. And these friends took a video and they started doing, like, a voiceover of what we were saying to each other. And it was actually pretty funny. And I was like, oh, my gosh, you should send that to Ariana. That's hilarious. And then someone somewhere was, no, no, maybe, maybe not, because it seemed cool. But then it also seemed like, wait, is this cool or is this not cool? Because it seems like you guys are really, like, your faces are really close to each other and you're having an in depth conversation.

Nothing happened that night. It was just like this stark contrast between being belittled, being bullied, being harassed for having fun in Vegas on a girls trip, being exhausted, and being welcomed into this room where I felt wanted. And then somebody actually hearing me out and hearing what I'm saying and understanding and relating and all of those things is like something switched in me where my priority became, this is something that I need in my life. This is something that's lacking, and this is something that is going to help me survive through the rest of the season. And that took first priority above everything else.

Hi, I'm Susie Esman.

And I am Jeff Garland.

Yes, you are.

And we are the hosts of the history of Curb your enthusiasm podcast. We're going to watch every single episode. It's 122, including the pilot, and we're going to break them down.

By the way, most of these episodes I have not seen for 20 years.

Yeah, me too. We're going to have guest stars and people that are very important to the show, like Larry David.

I did once try and stop a woman who was about to get hit by a car. I screamed out, watch out. And she said, don't you tell me what to do.

And Cheryl Hines, why can't you just.

Lighten up and have a good time?

And Richard Lewis.

How am I going to tell him? I'm going to leave now. Can you do another phone? Do you have to do it in person? What's not canceling cable? You have to go in and he's a human being. He's helped you.

And then we're going to have behind the scenes information. Tidbit.

Yes, tidbit is a great word.

Anyway, we're both a wealth of knowledge about this show because we've been doing it for 23 years. So subscribe now and you could listen to the history of Kerber enthusiasm on iHeartRadio app, Apple Podcasts, or wherever you happen to get your podcasts.

Hey, this is Dana Schwartz. You may know my voice from noble blood, Haleywood, or stealing Superman. I'm hosting a new podcast and we're calling it very special episodes.

One week we'll be on the case with special agents from NASA as they crack down on black market moon rocks.

H. Ross froze on the other side and he goes, hello, Joe, how can I help you? I said, Mr. Pro, what we need is $5 million to get back a moon rock.

Another week we'll unravel a 90s Hollywood mystery.

It sounds like it should be the next season of true Detective or something. These canadian cops trying to solve this 25 year old mystery of who's bike the chowder on the Titanic set.

A very special episode is stranger than fiction. It's normal. People plop down in extraordinary circumstances. It's a story where you say, this should be a movie. Listen to very special episodes on the iHeartRadio app, Apple Podcasts, or wherever you get your podcasts.

What up, guys? Ola ketal.

It's your girl.

Cheekies from the cheekies and chill and dear Cheekies podcasts. You've been with me for season one and two, and now I'm back with season three. I am so excited. You guys get ready for all new episodes where I'll be dishing out honest advice and discussing important topics like relationships, women's health, and spirituality. For a long time, I was afraid of falling in love, so I had to. And this is a mantra of mine or an affirmation every morning where I tell myself it is safe for me to love and to be loved. I've heard this a lot. That people think that I'm conceited, that I'm a Mamona. And a Mamona means that you just think you're better than everyone else. I don't know if it's because of how I act in my video. Sometimes I'm like, I'm a baddie. I don't know what it is, but I'm chill. It's cheekies and chill.

Hello.

Listen to cheekies and chill and dear cheekies as part of the My Coultura podcast network on the iHeartRadio app, Apple Podcasts, or wherever you get your podcasts.

When it was announced that you went into a treatment facility, people said that your three month inpatient treatment was a pr stunt or that you really weren't in a treatment center, but you were at the spa. Tell us about that and how that made you feel.

Well, first of all, my privacy was violated when somebody in the trauma therapy center, we were in the same group together. I came in that week, and she was leaving that week, and I think she accidentally texted a friend saying, oh, you wouldn't believe who is in the meadows with me? Raquel from Vanderpump rules. And that got screenshotted and sent out to the press, to the media somewhere. It got somewhere, and then stories started circulating. Oh, no, she's not at a mental health facility. She's not at a treatment center. She's at a spa. And, oh, yeah, she's at this place called Miravell in Arizona. So people were like, rakhyle's at Miraval with Tom Sandoval. Of course she's not a trauma therapy center. She's not doing that. No, she's at a spa. And we know for a fact this is the update. And there were updates. Oh, my God, the updates. Every single hour of every single day. It seemed like there was a new update, but, yeah, that update at the time was people knew for a fact that I was at a spa and not a treatment facility. And I think other cast members were saying that I was.

And NBC Bravo and Evolution, the production company that produces Vanderpump rules, all knew that I was actually at the meadows, and there was paperwork to prove it. They did nothing to prevent that rumor of me being at a spa from flourishing. In fact, they actually perpetuated it by bringing it on to Andy Cohen's watch what happens live. Andy said, I must have been highly medicated at the reunion because I had no emotion. And so I guess Andy Cohen was prompting his guests, asking them, do you think Raquel is actually at a mental health facility, or is she actually at a spa? And just further perpetuate that rumor that I was at a spa, even though they knew actually for a fact that I was not. And all of the commentators who said that they knew for a fact that I was at a spa have never come forward and admitted that they were wrong. And I have not received a single apology from any of them. And they're continuing to post and talk about all things Vanderpump, including this podcast, even though I know some of them don't even listen to the podcast. They're just listening to the recaps of the people doing recaps of the podcast, which is not all the information.

There is some juicy stuff in. Like there's stuff that I'm revealing that people higher up don't want you to know. So do your due diligence and listen to the whole podcast.

Hello, this is Susie Esman and Jeff Garland. I'm here, and we are the hosts of the history of Curb your enthusiasm podcast. Now, we're going to be rewatching and talking about every single episode, and we're going to break it down and give behind the scenes knowledge that a lot of people don't know. And we're going to be joined by special guests, including Larry David and Cheryl Hines, Richard Lewis, Bob Odenkirk, and so many more. And we're going to have clips, and it's just going to be a lot of fun. So listen to the history of curb your enthusiasm on iHeartRadio app, Apple podcasts, or wherever you happen to get your podcasts.

Hey, this is Danish Schwartz. You may know my voice from Noble Blood, Haleywood, or stealing Superman. I'm hosting a new podcast, and we're calling it very special episodes. A very special episode is stranger than fiction.

It sounds like it should be the next season of true detectives, these canadian cops trying to solve this mystery of who spiked the chowder on the Titanic set.

Listen to very special episodes on the iHeartRadio app, Apple Podcast, or wherever you get your podcasts.

What up, guys?

Ola Catal, it's your girl cheekies from the cheekies and chill and dear cheekies podcasts. And guess what? We're back for another season. Get ready for all new episodes where I'll be dishing out honest advice, discussing important topics like relationships, women's health, and spirituality. I'm sharing my experiences with you guys, and I feel that everything that I've gone through has made me a wiser person. And if I can help anyone else through my experiences, I feel like I'm living my godly purpose. Listen to cheekies and chill and your cheekies on the iHeartRadio app, Apple Podcast, or wherever you get your podcasts.