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She's sharing her truths, her fears and her secret passions.

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Well, first of all, I was trying to remember, I was like, how did we meet? I was a super woman.

I think it was the video. If it was a woman as crazy as. Only shot, that was the first thing you called and you were like, hey, I really want you to be in the video, that has to be. But the crazy thing is, I feel like I've known you since the day I was born. I know something about you. You're so kind to me.

I feel like I've never not known, you know, what it was like. That's what we were doing when we met. Where did that come from? It's been so interesting that I've become known for songs that are very empowering women.

Right.

I realize now that the times that I've written those songs are the times that I've needed those songs. Yeah, that makes total sense. Yeah.

Yeah, it was usually at times I felt so on strong, so on super womanly, so weak or confused, feeling misunderstood that the only way that I knew how to get through that was to write what I was hoping for.

Yeah. That's really powerful though because it's almost like medicine, not only medicine for you, but medicine for other people.

You know, even when I'm a mess, I still put on a vest when there's so much. So far, one, well, yes, I'm sure. But that's something we are. I didn't realize that ever.

When did you realize, like yesterday when you say you're a mess, like, what are the things that you saying that I do?

Yeah, I have been doing this thing for many years where I have been downplaying or whatever it is that I need, because I never want to come off to demanding.

I just need that little bit. I don't need a lot. Right. And I've always thought that that was actually a very righteous, beautiful way to be.

I realize that, in fact, what I've been doing to myself and what I've been actually asking the universe to give me is only a little bit.

I've been battling potentially some self-worth issues because for whatever reason, I'm feeling like I'm not deserving of greatness, I'm not good enough, and I've been smashing it down for so long that it's become a habit, a bad habit.

I have some clarity as to how that happened. I think at the time that when I first started, I was so young. I mean, I was 14. Yeah. And when actually everything exploded, I was 18. Wow. And so I was a baby just trying to I was like, I can do it, I'll do it out. Here's what I do.

And I know what I was doing. None of it. None of us don't know what to do, what exactly they had such strong ideas about what they wanted for me.

And there was a certain sense of desire for me to be inaccessible.

Yeah. And I think the reason why was mostly protection, because I was so young, I was a girl, like everybody can't get to where.

And so that happened and suddenly didn't access myself either because I was so young and I just trying to kind of hang on and make it all makes sense and might not fall on my face.

And so I was trying to keep everything together, like I think I have it. And is this how I do it?

Yeah. Yeah, and then I just kept on and that was just it, yeah, so it just kind of ended up being that way.

Yeah, I understand the pain of the pressure and how it exhausts one to have to live up to and unravel the smile.

Because we always see smiling, especially when is some pain going on in song like the Smile type, the gravitas smile.

I realize that. So I I'm like, oh, here we go again. That brought tears to my eyes, just feel so.

Have you been able to identify the fears within you space?

Thank you, Anderson.

Yes, my fears, I. I don't even know how to get married. Oh, wow. Really Dusty.

I don't even know what it's like to just lose my mind on somebody and just totally lose it. My mother, on the other hand, is very good at being angry and kind of sharing her true feelings, which I actually admire deeply about her.

I almost wish so many times I loved her like I wish I could do that, which would be so freeing.

But I think because she raised me and it was her and I, there was a certain balance that I had to naturally take in order for the relationship to work.

We couldn't both kind of. Yeah. Like somebody had to be.

So I think I became that person. Yeah. And then I kind of took that with me everywhere. So and I became that person and everybody I was going to be the figure out or I was going to be the one that kind of made everything. Oh no. That's what I learned to be right.

I'm going to be the one with the piano, with the thing and the thing that the nice benefit of the sweet and the smiling and the peacemaker, that that's who I am. Right. But that's not I am. So in thinking about that, how did it make you feel when people would be angry at you? Would you get into a people pleasing mode constantly, like, how can I make this right? How can I make this right?

I'm the one who had to put the bow with the ribbon and the sparkly paper over everything. Like everything was a wrap up with a bow. By the time I was finished with it, I was not comfortable writing is so sick.

I mean, I'm someone I want to vomit in my own self because it's just like I honestly can't write seriously.

And recently I have to pull myself back from the collar on my jacket and I say, don't fix that. Hmm.

Yeah, I feel you on that one. Oh, my God, I feel you. Oh, my. And it hurts. It's hard. Yeah.

What was the best piece of advice you've ever gotten? Probably from my amazing grandmother. This is one of my favorite songs. And you remind me of my grandmother's, I tell you that. You may remember. When she was dying. She lived with me at. And it was amazing because all my life she had taken care of me, right. And she's so elegant and strong and fierce and sincere, and there wasn't a car that she didn't write for a person's birthday or a celebration graduation or she was that one, my mom and.

And I knew I was going to have a much longer and I started thinking about mortality a lot. And and I remember when I wrote this song, a lot of people thought that it is about a love of, you know, a boyfriend, Ryan. But this is really about my love for her. And so. She taught me to cherish the moments. And she also taught me that. If. If things were to happen in a way that you thought they were supposed to happen.

That was OK. Yeah. That was OK if I were you. That's not OK. Yes, it is OK. Yeah, you got to let be.

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Which I cherish, what we had was a. If I could feel your touch and along the way with me. I been you have to be. At the president get. And I don't want to take for granted the time you have here on me. Because Lord only knows I know the thing is, I counted. So every time your. Me, hold me like that said. Touch me like this is the. Love me like you'll never see me again.

No, that song, it was like one of my favorites, too. Yeah, I don't know, it was about your grandmother, though.

Oh yeah. It has such a different meaning. Yeah. That's so beautiful. It has such a.

Wow. So powerful. It is. Yeah, she is. We are. Yeah. Thank you. Yeah, wow, thank you. This is really a gift. What's the biggest misconception that you think people have about you?

Probably that I'm very happy or that I'm very strong. Yeah.

Mm hmm. But I get the sense that people expect me.

They're like, oh, what do you mean you feel bad? Oh, my favorite one that they don't think I curse.

I'm like, what the hell do you think? I don't watch, watch, watch. Are you it.

Oh yeah. Yeah.

And it wasn't until recently I realized the whole pedestal ideas. I please kick the pedestal down.

Yeah. And be on nobody's business because I'm good. I want to be on the floor. Right. Yes. I want to be right there. Right. We are right here together. We are good. Yeah. I could just be me, I could be all my flawed beautiful self.

You can be your flawed beautiful so we can just hang out and talk and work through it and sort it out.

That's where I wanted get what you want to live anywhere else. That's what I've been using.

This red tape to strip it down is that with no makeup came from to, you know, the no makeup thinking.

I was definitely frustrated with just a lot of things in the world. I had like a paper that I wrote down, all the things that pissed me off.

Oh, I'm pissed off about the way that if my son wants to pay his nails, it's a big deal.

Yeah, I'm pissed off. Right. I'm pissed off that if I'm not so put together and I walk out the side, someone says to me, you look tired.

Are you are you. I'm not tired. This is just my fan base. Yeah, but I didn't even know that because I don't even know my face. I don't even know my own face. Right.

And when I took off all the stuff and I looked into the mirror, I didn't know that person.

And I was like, I will walk by the moon. But I I didn't know who I was while it was that drastic.

I look back today at pictures today and I really didn't really have to be that.

There was just so much I was realizing that I wanted to know myself more. Then I started going to his head headship about like, oh my gosh, I've done that because I've been told to do the exact succumbing to whatever people's expectations of me are, which is mostly pretty much my whole life, like, oh, what do you expect from me?

Oh, let me do it. Wow. Yeah.

What would you say the time in your life that has been most challenging?

I would say finding the strength to let go of the people that weren't serving me when they were so integral in everything that I had known. Yeah. And I felt almost so dependent on them. I felt in my mind I thought that without them, I wouldn't be me.

Yeah. And that took a long time to come to terms with that. People definitely assist you in your journey for sure. But they don't make you. Yeah, nobody makes you. I make me. Yeah, right.

But it takes you a minute to get to that space.

So when you realize that it's just like just yesterday to this day, I'm like I make me I know what I need at least.

What do you need?

Stop. Stop going.

Do you think that I need to know.

It's like we do this weird thing, me especially, and I want to ask everybody and a mother to tell me what did I do that I do right for some reason, like, I don't trust myself to know if it's like the best it could possibly be.

And you know what I realized about that just in my own journey, there have been things in my life that I've done that would sit totally outside of what people think I am.

Right. So that you have this guilt and you have this shame. So then you lose the trust in yourself. Yeah, right.

Because you're like, I did this. I did that. Those weren't really great decisions.

So maybe I don't really know why somebody else needs to be telling me or maybe I need to be on this person's journey. Right.

And so I had to really take a moment and look at my life and go all of it. Every bit of it has been to get you to where you are today, to get you to your freedom.

You had to go through those. You had to live who you want to know who you are. Yes.

There is so much tenderness that I'm learning to have with myself. Yeah. And so much more empathy that I'm learning to have with myself. Yeah.

And just being able to like I'm so empathetic about everybody else, I can sit there and come up with every reason as to why or whatever I want. Oh don't worry. It's just because they're a little frustrated. There's a lot going on and you could understand how that could. But I don't have those same tendencies in myself. Yeah. I just want to talk a little bit about your relationship with Swizz.

OK, so you guys have been married for nine years now. How's that going?

It's always been so easy for us, isn't you?

In the sense of nothing is just easy. There are challenges with everything, but there's always between you.

Yeah, my husband is like such a free spirit.

So this is like in the sky. Yeah. The way he thinks, he's just he's just in the sky and everything is all up there. Right. I'm like I got grandma's foot and I like here we go.

Yeah. OK, two seconds. I got you two seconds here. I got it. OK, all right. Go back later.

I know you have the interface and we get along really well like that because we balance each other like he helps me. Yes, I know all of you dream to me.

I have a dream like how I did before. Right? Because the way he did it, I'm like, how you get all those thoughts they get, right?

Yeah, exactly. You know, and I've been jealous of him before, haven't I?

Yeah. You got bigger dreams. I understand that too.

And dreams huling my dreams as big and will have bigger dreams for us than we can even imagine for ourselves I.

So what has motherhood taught you? Gosh, so the kids, what have they taught me? Yes, they've taught me so much.

They've taught me to appreciate the vibe, to appreciate the magic and to know when it's not there, because there's moments when something is actually magic and you're like, you know what, I'm a go ahead and stay here. Yeah. And I might be really late tonight. Right. But the magic is here and it's worth it.

Right. And then there's other moms, like there is no magic. Yeah.

And this time we know I don't have to try to conjure up the magic to make the thing. No, it's not happening today.

Go, go. Make sure you're where you need to be, you know. So that's been cool because I used to just beat things to death. And if I wasn't working 19 hours a day, I wasn't actually working.

I said to be.

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Well, before we go, I'm going to bring out the fish bowl.

Oh, Alicia, how do you not lose yourself in a relationship when you are with a successful man?

Oh, OK.

Question your question.

Ever since the beginning of our relationship, we always had something that was called keep it real, whatever the day was, if it was Wednesday, you, like, keep it real Wednesday.

And I would kind of be a signal that there was something we needed to discuss. Right. That might be a little tricky. Right. You know. Right.

For me, I've had a history of excusing things that I've felt, making excuses for them. Yeah. Oh, well, he didn't mean that what he really was probably trying to say, you know.

But I know it bothered me and I pushed it down and I shoved it in there and I kept it right instead of just like, hey, it really bothered me the way you said that made me it made me feel like diminished or like you didn't really respect what I had to say.

And that made me feel uncomfortable. I only lose myself when I can't speak. When you don't express yourself.

Yeah. So that that's good. I like another one. Yes. All for you. What's your secret passion? Oh, I got.

OK, my secret passion, I truly want to be. A party planner? Oh, I was waiting for like I really like molecular biology. I know that. Yeah, I do too. Joy, I always wanted to work in a bridal shop. That's a good one. Yeah, I can see that. I can see that I truly love. I just like putting an environment that makes people happy and taking their unique whatever and making it a moment that they'll never forget and just enjoy it so much.

I love surprises. I love surprising people.

I didn't know that I had this before because I didn't ever like to be surprised myself. I just it don't surprise me. Don't celebrate my birthday. I was I was so tight.

I was the problem was so tight that loosen up, relax. And so that's my secret passion.

I love that I've considered starting a side business. But you should know, am I truly a party planner?

Dream exactly. How many supposed to do this? If you could do you can do as many as you want.

Is there artist you haven't collaborated that you love to do something together. Well.

Well, my lifelong dream is to collaborate with Lauryn Hill, so that's I guess that's like a I can't believe that that would be amazing.

So iconic. That's going to be like we're going to say that's happening, that it hasn't happened yet, but it's going to have a big love to her. She's amazing. Thanks.

When I fish my this fish bowl, that is.

But before we leave, can you play girl on fire on our way.

I with. I'll sing it real loud. Yeah. You crazy. She's got to sing with Alicia.

All right. We get to the chorus of playing it because we girls want to kill it, OK? We could be off. We could be on, we could be flat. Rudisha. That's the point.

OK, ok, ok.

She's just a girl and she's on fire. Hotter than a fantasy, lonely like a highway, she's never. A world in its own fire filled with catastrophe, but she knows she could fly away. She got her feet on the ground and she's Bernini. Now, this girl is owned by. It's been awesome. Thank you so much for having me. Thank you so much for doing this and for conceptualizing this and being brave enough to be together like this and breaking down barriers and opening us all up to talking.

It's a blessing. I love to hear this. Seriously, that was awesome. Hayati family join our red tabletop group on Facebook to become part of the conversation and be sure to follow the show page to catch up on all our episodes. After the episode, we asked Alisha to play around with our theme song. And this is what happened.

No. Nobody knows what. So to be one. Just quickly, it's just instrumental, it's just instrumental, and I wish I can listen to some play. We are about. And one thing I just want to be myself, I'm gonna need one one, I just want the. I just want to be myself. I don't want anyone. I just want to be. I like that. All right, so what's the first word? First of all, I don't want to be it was I just want to be myself.

And so I just want to be OK. I don't want to be with anyone. Anyone I don't know. I just want to be myself. I don't want to be anyone. I just want to be exact. I want me again.

And I want to be anyone.

I just want to be myself. I don't wanna be anyone. Yeah. I just want to be myself. I don't want to be anyone. I just want to be myself.

I just want to be I want to be myself. I don't want to be anyone else. Yes. I just want to be myself. I just want to be I just want to be myself.

Oh, wait, wait, wait, wait.

I get this one time I go to read and I just want to be myself. I don't want to be anyone else. I just want to be myself. I just want to be. I just want to be myself. I don't want to be anyone else. I just want to be myself. I just want to be. Was going to be a new theme song. Yes.

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